This morning I woke up to find an email from my dad saying that my Uncle Frank, my mom's brother, had passed away. This comes just a few days over 3 years after my mom's death and.. well, frankly.. I know less to do about this then I did about my mom's death, mostly because I don't know how to console my aunt or my cousins that -to equal heartbreak- I don't really know.
What makes it feel worse for me is that, even though I'm far from what you'd call a practicing Catholic, I'm my cousin Arianna's godfather. In a way now, from what I understand about the practice, even though my aunt is still alive I'm supposed to be the one to step in as the father figure. It was an honor bestowed to me by my uncle, even though I've far from been a paragon in the field, I've always taken the title as seriously as the time my uncle asked me to name her. It's just, I can't get myself out of bed most mornings because I'm so depressed, so how am I supposed to help her with this pain when I haven't been able to get through the multitudes of pain I've felt since my cousin, Eugene, and all those who followed, died while I was growing up. No one person's pain is better then anyone else's, there is no winning in that game, but it's extremely hard to be in the same sinking boat, and know what to do to save the other person when you haven't figured out how to save yourself.
You'd figure I've been through this no fewer then 10 times now, in what some would call a short life, I should be well versed in knowing what to do in the event that my good friend Death decides he's going to show up for another round of "let's test Mike's will to go on." But I'm not. I don't think there is really any way to be and still be considered a human being.
...In The Daunting Abyss
One guy's journey through the quagmire of geek culture.
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Wednesday, January 8, 2014
NOT GONE!
I know, I know, I changed the name of the site and all the corresponding social media attached and I disappear, but I'M NOT GONE!!
It's been a crazy month. Holidays got in the way, like they do, but since then family has gotten all up in my way too. Then I got (still am) really really sick, and have been laid up in bed.
Thank God I got a Galaxy Tab 3 for super cheap through working sales during the holidays (more on this, maybe) because I've sat in bed most of this time and did a better part of the work I needed to do for the next reason I've been away.
During being sick and everything else, I've been trying to research and ordering parts and software to upgrade my PC to start doing video work. Which is taking more time then I had hoped.
Any way, excuses! I'm REALLY behind in my imaginary deadlines, but I'm not gone, and big things should be happening soon(ish). In fact, I'm 10 seconds away from cracking open this external harddrive in front of me to back up my PC so I can install the solid state drive I've also got sitting in front of me.
Progress!
It's been a crazy month. Holidays got in the way, like they do, but since then family has gotten all up in my way too. Then I got (still am) really really sick, and have been laid up in bed.
Thank God I got a Galaxy Tab 3 for super cheap through working sales during the holidays (more on this, maybe) because I've sat in bed most of this time and did a better part of the work I needed to do for the next reason I've been away.
During being sick and everything else, I've been trying to research and ordering parts and software to upgrade my PC to start doing video work. Which is taking more time then I had hoped.
Any way, excuses! I'm REALLY behind in my imaginary deadlines, but I'm not gone, and big things should be happening soon(ish). In fact, I'm 10 seconds away from cracking open this external harddrive in front of me to back up my PC so I can install the solid state drive I've also got sitting in front of me.
Progress!
Friday, December 20, 2013
Small Fix For The Only Telltales The Walking Dead Season 2 Issue I had.
Word my already be spread, but anyone playing The Walking Dead Season 2 on PC may run into an issue where they load the game for the first time and it finds a different set of saves from the ones you want to use. For whatever reason this happened to me and I can't figure out why at the moment (both no time and slightly too technical for me to want to poke into), but it may have something to do with Steam, or possibly trying to start over, over an old save. I seriously can't tell.
Sunday, December 8, 2013
My Most Hated Character Of The Year: GTA V's Franklin
Franklin.. Oh Franklin.. If videogame characters were bicycle wheels, you'd be the big, deflated, third one. If this were a big wheel, you'd make a kid cry...
I Called It 2 Years Ago: Operation Rainfall Didn't Mean Squat...
I've been waiting a long time to write about Operation Rainfall, the upstart little segment of the game community that really wanted to see Pandora's Tower, Xenoblade and The Last Story get localized to the west, but haven't because they've very plainly fallen off the face of the earth in terms of creating ridiculous plans, just to get seen.
My Favorite New Character Of The Year: Lara Croft
I started to write this in response to the Destructoid community casting call for the same subject, but life and my fickle health made me take more of a detour then I wished, and I missed the boat. But screw it, I'm typing up what I wrote through the week and posting it any way!
This may have some light Tomb Raider (2013) spoilers.
Monday, December 2, 2013
My Least Favorite Games Of The 7th Generation
Okay, so I tackled some of my favorite games of the last generation, it only seems natural to go in the other direction.
Like the last time, I can only comment on games I've actually played. And I'll add the caveat that this time, you'll probably find a reason to really be angry. But, again, that's on you. Feelings and all that.
So without further ado, I'll be getting behind these blast doors...
Like the last time, I can only comment on games I've actually played. And I'll add the caveat that this time, you'll probably find a reason to really be angry. But, again, that's on you. Feelings and all that.
So without further ado, I'll be getting behind these blast doors...
Friday, November 29, 2013
My Favorite Games Of The 7th Console Generation
I know some will find this to be incomplete without (Insert this game), and feel inclined to say so. It really should go without saying, but I honestly can't comment on games I've not played.. Or aren't thinking about..
Either way, sit a while and listen...
Wednesday, November 27, 2013
Swery65 Outs Deadly Premonition 2
In a recent interview, my friend (I wish) and yours, Swery65, dropped a small bomb on our heads in an offhand comment, by outing the development of Deadly Premonition 2; the sequel to one of my favorite games of this generation:
“After producing Deadly Premonition, I started work on production of the Lord of Arcana series right away, and during that time I was already working on the planning and pre-production of D4.” Suehiro told Gaming Bolt. “At the same time I was also working on the sequel to Deadly Premonition and the framework for the Director’s Cut.”
I've got a lot of things to be excited about right now.. Hell, I should even be in the kitchen starting my prep for tomorrows Thanksgiving feast.. But there was no way I wasn't going to share this with everyone.
To say I'm excited is like saying I'm about to burn my eyebrows off: It's a given.
(Source: Bloody Disgusting)
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